One hundred push-ups

Posted in Exercise, Self-improvement on February 19, 2010 by Fax

I’m doing it, as of yesterday. After a break from the gym that is already way longer than I planned, I found this and… had to do it!

I did the initial test last night (doin push-ups to failure, counting how many), and was happily surprised: 19! And I’m pretty sure I would have made it to 21 if it weren’t for the unstable base I was using (my wrists hurt if I lay my palm on the floor, so I do them with closed fists; it is therefore a good idea to put some kind of cloth between them and the floor, but I had the not-so-great idea of using a couple of small pillows, which kept sliding inwards, hurting my form).

So in six weeks from now, I should be able to perform 100 push-ups in one set. Kick ass!


The Expression of Affection

Posted in Uncategorized on January 12, 2010 by Fax

«Love is imponderable and universally irresponsible. There is not enough gravity to talk seriously about love and that is why it’s not worth it to treat it with gravity.

Love is an adolescent feeling, with all that has of color, sun and dreams laying on the sand. And things flow, should flow, the longer the better, and even the words that we then say are only good for expressing what we live in the love relationship, and that is not necessarily the essence of love.

I say, you are so beautiful, and I express not an aesthetic judgment, but a state of mind, I want to say that there is nothing as beautiful as you and that that beauty moves me and it is from that moving that the love I feel for you bursts from. Do you see what I mean? When I love, I am not capable of describing exactly what I feel, but what is extraordinary about it is that I couldn’t care less about describing what I feel, and it’s that difference, that consciousness of the uselessness of the words, that voluntary resignation to understanding what love is, that allows me to realize that I love.

What I say, I therefore say it because it is necessary that the voice sounds between two lovers, that it echoes the stunning of the heart, that it calls to the other what we want the other to hear inside of us.»

– in A Expressão dos Afectos, António Mega Ferreira

Whoa, it’s that time of the year already?!

Posted in News, Self-improvement on January 7, 2010 by Fax

Hah! Happy New Year!

Alright, real quick: nope, I’m not 15kg heavier, but I am 7kg heavier :) Considering I only started taking it seriously (read going to the gym and following a nutrition plan) in September, it’s not reeeeeeeeeally an epic failure ;)

The rest of the stuff I listed as resolutions… baaaaaaaaaah, forget all that, I did a ton of cooler things ;) No, seriously, I did!

Resolutions for 2010? Um… Carpeing the diem more than ever ;)

Yup, I’m feeling fantastic! And so should you :)

On Enemies

Posted in Self-improvement on September 29, 2009 by Fax

Old me is almost gone.

Change started roughly 3 years ago, and though I intend to keep changing with every breath the parts of me that I didn’t like are almost all taken care of. It’s been one hell of a roller-coaster, guys, the process has been amazing.

What didn’t I like? Mostly the fact that I wasn’t getting dirty enough. In every sense you can imagine.

Life is short, play in the rain.

Most of the changing process has been intended, but it is still funny that I notice change, or evolution, most frequently by reflection, by outside feedback.

And while I get people liking me more the way I am now, I also get to make enemies – it is now part of the equation too. It’s only natural: I say what I mean and I do what I say, and I can’t please everyone. Among the displeased people, a few will get pretty pissed. Here is a very good way to sum it up, and it was one of the most important lessons I have learned:

No Enemies, by Claude McKay

You have no enemies, you say?
Alas, my friend, the boast is poor.
He who has mingled in the fray of duty
that the brave endure, must have made foes.
If you have none,
Small is the work that you have done.

You’ve hit no traitor on the hip.
You’ve dashed no cup from perjured lip.
You’ve never turned the wrong to right.
You’ve been a coward in the fight.

Halfway-through assessment

Posted in Career, News, Self-improvement on June 5, 2009 by Fax

Can you believe we’re already halfway-through 2009? Holy macaroni.

Time to do an assessment over my Resolutions for this year. Oh dear, just looking at them makes me go eeek… OK, here we go:

  • Gain at least 15kgs of weight: uh oh, epic failure on the horizon. I’m at the exact same point I was half a year ago;
  • Medium goal: I’ll leave this one for later :-);
  • Read at least half an hour a day: Nope, I haven’t. I’ve read more so far than in the past couple of years, that I’m sure of, but not at this pace;
  • Travel: So far so good – I did go to Berlin, and I’ve done some tripping in Portugal as well. We’ll see how the rest of the year goes, I’m not so sure I’ll be able to visit the US anymore;
  • Psychology: Hmn, I didn’t look into it any more seriously than I did before. I’m reading a really good book on body language at the moment – not that it fits into the psychology category, but my point with psychology is really to understand us better so… yeah;
  • Social circle: Right-o, I’m on it! I have to anyhow, more on that in a bit;
  • Set up a steady business in SecondLife: bah, no, I want to spend my time in there – which has become pretty short – having fun and meeting people. If a good (great) idea does come up I’ll probably elaborate on it, but I won’t be forcing something out.

That doesn’t look too good, does it? What have I done then?

Well, remember the medium goal? About taking charge, doing what I wanted to do? I did that.

I wasn’t happy with the work I was doing. I (humbly) refused an offer to keep doing what I was doing. I spoke out, I was heard, and I was offered a different kind of job. I liked it, I took it, and I love it so far!

Also, it made me move. I’m in another town now, baby, and guess what – I like it!

Also, I’m living “alone” (technically I have flatmates).

Also, it’s making me get off my ass and meet new people.

In fact, it’s time to go do just that, so I’ll just publish this without more thought. It doesn’t really need a conclusion anyhow. Later, gator!

Hypocrite alert, hypocrite alert

Posted in News, Vegetarianism on May 17, 2009 by Fax

Almost a year past since my decision to stop eating meat, I’m proud to say this: haven’t touched it meanwhile. But, but, there’s a catch.

I still eat fish. Rationale: oh well since I’m back to my parents’ it’ll be too much trouble for them to make two special meals for me (they usually balance with a meat lunch and fish dinner). Guess what happens out of thinking that way – I’m no longer at my parents’, and even though I’m in total control of what I do or do not eat and have options, I’ve been eating fish nonetheless.

So I’m on the train back “home” and decided to watch another one of those “shock and awe” videos on animal abuse, similar to the one that made me open my eyes to all this in the first place, but this time oriented towards sea animals. Check it out at, “Top three reasons not to eat fish”, or follow this link. I have to say I’m skeptical in what concerns all the mercury hype – I’m obviously not saying it’s not true, it just sounds hypeish, I’ll need to look into it – but it doesn’t really matter anyhow, the video had me at reason #1. It’s just cruel.

Ok, so what am I going to do about it? Simple – no more fish eating when I have the choice. About time to a) cook ;-) and b) start sucking up those mushrooms. And when I don’t have the choice? Oh I’ll use that opportunity to make some propaganda.

Goodbye, codfish and the likes. You were good.

These are a few of my favorite things

Posted in Erasmus on April 30, 2009 by Fax
September 26th, 2007

September 26th, 2007

I’m a sucker for defining moments. Like when I hear a tune for the first time and suddenly realize it’s going to be one of my favorite tunes.

Or like when I meet someone new and have the instant feeling they’ll become very special.

June Somethingsomethingth (?), 2008

June Somethingsomethingth (?), 2008

September 22nd, 2008:


I hope you’re all doing great!

I’m fine, although I’ve been staying up all night and sleeping in the morning for a few days, something’s wrong with my sleep cycle.

Tonight I decided to run through all my photos. I thought it would be depressing, but this is photo 130 and to be honest I’m having a LOT of fun. Don’t be scared of doing the same – we spent great times together, we associated eachother’s faces to great feelings, looking at these photos is only making me smile more and more!

But I decided to write on this one, especially.

You know why?

Go back to that first photo of us four, in the first few days of Erasmus. :-)

See what I mean? :-) Just look at us, in the beginning, then in the end. Remember how much we experienced, shared. Look at how we had just met, then look at how we seem to be accomplices in the most exciting crime… LIFE.

I love you guys :-)